Take a Ride

This semester is almost over, and I can't help but think if I'm doing the right thing.
I am completely uninterested in almost all of my classes, leaving me unmotivated with unsatisfactory grades.

To keep wishing

Marbled paper with lipstick kisses. 
This Christmas season brings great surprise. 

Awkwardly Placed

Realizing it's time to give in. 
Pull the covers over my eyes, 
enjoy sleeping peacefully.
I mark this awkward stage between
being wanted and wanting... 
That I want to just run away without obligation.
Maybe this isn't for me. 
Maybe I've been hoping for something that isn't going to come.
I can be happy alone.
I will be happy alone. 
-with time.
What's impossible is the explanation. 
I had my perfect boy, who opened the doors for me,
loved me more than anything, 
my heart was all in. 
It's hard to see people loving endlessly, 
without the past of being hurt. 
Because I am afraid for them, but also don't know 
what their outcome may be.
Maybe their fairy-tale was meant to be, 
while mine was just a rough draft that the author never had time to finish. 
I'm trying to move past this and just live without warning. 
Because who am I to tell people's futures. 
I'm just a girl. Wanting the life I once had, 
with someone I haven't found yet. 
Pathetic?
I think so too.

Magically Forgiven

"I think you could fall in love with anyone if you saw the parts of them that no one else gets to see. Like if you followed them around invisibly for a day and you saw them crying in their bed at night or singing to themselves as they make a sandwich or even just walking along the street and even if they were really weird and had no friends at school, I think after seeing them at their most vulnerable you wouldn’t be able to help falling in love with them. ”

Taking Pride over Judgement

Why do we desire to care less? 
:Be hurt without pain, and so smile knowing the past is clear of regret? 
Wouldn't it benefit if we desired to care more, and protract less?
Guarded armor we carry with us, protecting our soft-hearted bodies, 
in turn scars.  
The snow falls peacefully as torn embraces interrupt the silence,
impossible to be thoughtless. 
Change is excitingly painful. 
I take pride in expectations, although fearfully faced. 
Importantly reminded of passing instances,
the twinkle lights outside, and relationships that hold in-importance. 
The days shine beautifully, if only there weren't barriers;
Barriers forcing hateful words to protect these leaps. 
Wonderful feelings of fluttered ties, embodied through heavy stares. 
The rules should be broken to experience the most exquisite. 
Convincing the importance is tearfully convicted. 

Unwrapping Mysteries

This wonder is driving this little brain crazy.