I shouldn't

I shouldn't be thinking this, looking back, and comparing.
The emotional tides have let loose, and here they are back at you. 
Engulfing every ounce of my being in excitement...
Away, there, far, out, gone.
These times. 
I'm going away;
Leaving everything I have ever known, to a place I have never been.
and bringing along the unsure version of my past that is safe. 
I love. 
Blue eyes, soft personality, and willingness. 
Every opposite trench of insecurities, with one word. 
You mark it for me. 
As if this world hasn't ever seen this yielding proof of everlastingness. 
Please, clear this confusion, 
let the water drip quietly behind the lost voices of passion.